I know everything reaches an end… But this end has to be this painful?? I just wanted things to be some way different… I know we’re not meant to be. But we were friends, at least I didn’t want to lose your friendship. Now I lost a love and a friend… It shouldn’t be this way!
The memory of what we could have been, what we could have done still aches every day. I know that we were not right from each other… I didn’t understand you and you didn’t understand me either… I really wanted to understand you, I wanted to be the one who ‘broke’ you…Well, I kept on failing during our relation… But now I think I do understand you! I never doubt your feelings, but now I know that you never felt the same I did. Because you knew that it wasn’t going to work out… You saw the end of our relation long before I did! I can honestly say that you saw it already in the beginning… You said the truth when you said you were immune.
You will certainly blame the distance for our end, like I did for all this time… It wasn’t the distance though, it wasn’t me or you,… The thing is that we never had a real start, so couldn’t have a real end… I really tried to save us, but that only turned to be a worthless effort…
Anyway the balance I do, it’s a positive one… I reached my goal, after all this time I finally understand you!! I fell in love for the first real time in my life. I had amazing moments, good laughs, intelligent arguments,…
The worst thing is realizing that I never had you… That is definitely what hurts the most…
