The unwanted end.

Existe tanto que gostaria de te dizer, que vai ficar por dizer.
Tantos momentos para partilhar, que vão ficar por viver.
Tanto, tanto que nem sei por onde começar.

Vivemos intensamente, mas acabamos tão precocemente.
Um fim não querido.
Mas exigido pelo destino, demolindo todos os nossos desejos.
Aproximou-nos, apaixonou-nos, juntou-nos...
E agora..
Ele mesmo nos separa.
Tem esse malfadado poder de ditar os começos e os fins.

Deveria eu ficar contente por ter acontecido?
O amor aconteceu-me.
Mas, em oposto ao cliché, não me alegra!
Sei que tal amor poderia ter continuado.
Poderia ter dado certo.
Poderia...
Mas não pode agora.
Porque após a tempestade e o pó assentar, eu e tu seremos pessoas diferentes,
com apenas uma historia em comum, que dificilmente se irá repetir.

Cold feet.

O tempo corre,
e eu não o consigo agarrar.
Quero pará-lo.
Quero tempo para pensar,
para me mentalizar
que a vida como a conheço
vai mudar de pernas para o ar.

A mudança assombra-me,
onde quer que vá.
Sem querer,
guardo os cheiros,
fotografo mentalmente
memorizo as vozes e o zunzum envolvente.
Beijo mais e abraço mais,
algumas vezes só em pensamento.

A estupidez preenche-me,
e não quero continuar.
Quero ficar para trás,
acomodar-me à vidinha conhecida,
que estou acostumada a levar.
Deixar os sonhos serem sonhos,
inconcretizaveis.

Estou cega pelo medo
e não consigo raciocinar.
Aprecio restituição de visão permanente,
muito brevemente.

End.

Correction: Nous n'allons pas trouver une solution. Female sign in Germany and male sign in Romania.


People complain about having bad endings,
and not having the desired happy ending.

Everybody wants the Great Happy Ending,
after all 'happily ever after' sounds more than perfect.
However, I'd gladly have the bad ending.
It would be so much easier to say goodbye,
no regrets, putting the blame on the other one or even me.


But no, I don't get to have a bad ending or a happy one either.
I just have an end,
happy or bad will remain hypotheticals.

Auf wiedersehen

The time for goodbye is imminent.
I hate goodbyes and farewell wishes.
I don't know how to do it,
without getting too emotional or contrarily hard as a rock.

But I do want to say goodbye to you.
I need to.
It will hurt, it will definitely hurt!
But not having the memory of the goodbye would hurt much more.

And if I don't plan to have that moment,
every time I'll be with you,
I'll be scared it is going to be the last time.

You blow my mind, honey! :)

Childhood fears

Childhood fears by Joshua Hoffine


When I was a child I had many fears and consequently many theories to overcome them.

I was scared of going to the bathroom at night, but if I woke up my sister and she turned on the light nothing bad would happen to me.
I was scared of sleeping alone, but if I stayed without moving under the blanket nothing bad would happen to me.
I was scared of being alone at home, but if the TV was turned on nothing bad would happen to me.
I was scared of seeing horror movies, but if I saw them until the end and after I could go to my mother's bedroom nothing bad would happen to me.

The fears were justifiable, but the theories I just made them up, because they were so pathetically comforting.

Now I don't have the same fears, the fears changed, unfortunately they will always be there. I just wished for the presence of theories as well, so nothing bad would happen to me.

caztgzafrinaa sxoares - Catarina Soares